SOOO HAPPY(:

So today my lover called me and he was just being all casual about things, and then he says well will you pick me up in IF from the airport im like what when. hes like in 2-3 weeks im gonna be home so we can spend sometime together(: ahhhh im about the happiest girl on this entire planet right now my little family is gonna be together for 4 days(:

I never thought I could be so in love

On July, 20th 2011 I became the happiest most proud person that I could be I became the mother of a baby boy Kainen Tuff. He completely changed my life(: I never thought I would be able to have a baby but he was a mirical baby(: While i was pregnant I had alot of complications, blacking out on lots of meds contractions at 24 weeks it was crazy and at points i thought what would happen if I lost him. But I never thought i could love this much EVER. When he went into the nicu I was so upset I didnt know what to think but he came out all good(: I thank everyone so much that helped me with the whole pregnancy and that was at the hospital and came and visited! It was all so amazing (:

Its only the begining

So today I have decided to make a blog, all thanks to my best friend Brittany Pulley!! I think I'm going to be addicted now(: Well I would just like to start off by saying my name is Caitlin I have a 3 month old son Kainen and an INCREADIBLE man in my life who's name is Steven!! SO this is a blog to just put how your feeling so im going to do so! I have been having so many issues with my family lately, all they do is nag at me for everything and anything. Somedays i wish i could just go and leave and never come back. My mom will say things that really break my heart into a million pieces like she says she doesnt feel like I love my son at all and that really breaks my heart soooo much. There is days where I just wanna go to my room and pack up my stuff and just leave which lately that has been a big topic in my head. I would live with my boyfriend but at this point he is in ND working his butt of so that he can get Kainen and I there. Sometimes im scared to live here because my sister is so mean to me sometimes she will hit me one time she broke my nose and gave me a black eye and a fat lip and i had to have stitches where she busted my eyebrow at:/ I try my best to be the best mom that I can be and my family doesnt see that. What more can I do?? Im a stay at home mom, doing the work by myself since Steven is gone right now, I dont get appreciated for anything I do. I just want to make my family happy but I guess they dont like the fact I had a baby at 19.